2014 was a pretty rough year for me personally, I’ve been struggling with my depression and my colitis has caused me some issues on and off so I want 2015 to be a fresh start for a happier me.
I was first diagnosed with ulcerative colitis when I was 19 and I have struggled keeping it under control and I’ve particularly struggled with my diet and keeping my weight on track especially after being on different types of medication over the years. Even though I’ve currently got the colitis under control I want to get back to a place where I’m comfortable in my own skin and happy with the way I look. In 2013 I was officially diagnosed with depression though I’d been to counselling whilst I was studying at University due to personal reasons. 2014 has been a huge struggle for me with depression, even though I’ve had the support of my family and friends I still feel alone more often than not and I’ve still found it incredibly difficult to deal with and quite frankly I’m sick of feeling like this, just waking up and feeling like I’m in a never ending pit of self-loathing and I am desperate to change this.
At 27 I feel like I’ve reached a point in my life where I need to really need to have my life in order and at the moment it just feels like chaos. I recently read a post by Tattooed Tealady about her happiness project and I felt inspired to do my own. There are so many things I want to accomplish with my life and I know that this rut I’m in isn’t going to get me anywhere so I have decided to have a complete overhaul of my life. So here it is, a huge commitment so I’ll be writing a monthly update on my progress as I will be giving myself a new set of tasks each month and I’ll be posting daily on Instagram as well.
- Start a regular exercise to my routine. This year I want to really concentrate on becoming fit and healthy. It’s going to start with introducing exercise to my daily routine, I used to be really active, I loved sports and in all honesty I’m not 100% sure when that changed but I want to get back into the frame of mind where I look forward to doing physical activity instead of procrastinating and trying to avoid it completely.
- Spring clean my life. This is basically me organising my life. I feel like my life is pretty cluttered and I need to dispose of things that are unnecessary like actual clutter and emotional clutter – the latter I know will be more difficult. I think the best way to begin will be to sort through my things and have a clear out. At least that way it’s making a start.
- Stay on track with healthy diet. Since New Year’s day I’ve adopted a much healthier diet than I had last year, I will not be eating any take aways or junk food and I’m trying to steer clear of binge eating too as I found that when ever I was having a bad day I would ‘eat my feelings’ so to speak which I think we can all agree isn’t healthy at all. I have about 3 stone of unwanted weight that I want to get rid of and it’s something that I’m determined to do. I know it’s going to be a struggle at first but I know in the end it will be worth it.
So.. January is here and my happiness project has started, here’s to the beginning of a brand new me.